IN THE MIX
This is generally a poetry blog, but I've been inspired to write any number of poems about my mom and inspired to write by her encouragement for many years.
My mom left us in 2006 after making it almost five years following an ovarian cancer diagnosis. (She might have had better chances if the first doctor hadn't sent her home and told her to come back in 6 months if she was still having the problem she reported and the second hadn't told her she could afford to wait 6 months when the CA125 test was negative--clearly unreliable. That second doctor said, "I learned something," after my mother's seven-hour surgery.)
She died February 10 and We buried her on Valentine's Day--13 years ago. My mom was one of the strongest women I know, and I'm fairly sure I have never met anyone as positive as she was. She'd always wanted to go to college, but that was deferred until she was in her 50's. She was finishing both her Bachelor's and her Master's in Texas while I was finishing my Master's at the University of Iowa. She was so interested in things, in knowing things or learning things, but she also was very interested in people.
I googled her. Only her obituary shows up. She doesn't need a google presence for me to remember that she never said "no, I can't," that she loved working puzzles (most of my family did, actually), something she did quite a bit during her cancer years, and that she never met a day without a smile.
This article, What It Really Means to Hold Space for Someone, resurfaced on Facebook. I know a number of people who know how to "hold space." I hope you are lucky enough to know more than one of those people.
Leaving this poem here. My mother held space with her light.
noun \ˌlü-mə-ˈnä-sətē\ the quality of shining or of being illustrious; of being notably or brilliantly outstanding because of dignity or achievements or actions
Light Leaped in Her
--for my mother
When nearby factories
into an ash-spackled sky
only the young girls
in a schoolyard
and rustle skirts
of pearl-pink crinoline
their palms clasped
one to the next.
All darkness acquiesced.
only the music
in patent leather.
their splash of pink.
She smelled incense
of flowering plum
long before the petals
drank in spring’s
of white magnolia.
I can testify her light
Even on days
when my light runs cold
still her light leaps.
Spring never fails
all white heat lusty
tiny shoots stud
the snow-blind earth.
It's been a while since I posted, and my poetry mind's been a bit scattered--trying to finish a manuscript, teaching an online class in poetry writing to non-poets mostly, reading for RHINO Poetry, and getting an occasional acceptance or rejection.
POSTCARDS More and more I enjoy unique publication opportunities. Like Postcard Poems and Prose Magazine where one's published poem appears as if on a postcard! postcardpoemsandprose.wordpress.com/ Check it out. And one of the editors that I've had contact with is great, so accommodating! More to come.
ORIGAMI Then there's Origami Poems, a website that accepts a group of poems, and with acceptance, publishes the mini book online and provides a one sheet file that can be folded into a book when printed. Love this idea, too. Check it out. I once did a workshop with students in a school in Ohio, and they hand-wrote their poems in one of these small foldable books. www.origamipoems.com/ The lovely ediitor's Jan Keough. More to come. ;)
YARN This week I'm headed to Colorado, first time there except for changing planes in Denver, to visit my cousin Jane Goepfert Kramer. I've never been to her new "home," Hayden, Colorado, and I'm excited to go. We've been Midwest "girls" our whole lives until she moved west. She's been sending me photos of the neighbors, an assortment of cows in particular. Ginger and Norma, and if we don't know the cow's name, we're just going with Myrtle. Jane's a pastor there for Hayden Congregational United Church of Christ, the "brand" of church we grew up in many years ago. The population of Hayden is around 1500 depending on which census one reads. I'm looking forward to chatter and laughter (because she comes from the teasing side of my family) and a few card games and talking to Norma and meeting some small-town folks and attending her church on Sunday. And leading a much slower life for a few days.
The Hayden Public Library has graciously offered to let me do a reading there on Wednesday, July 18, and in the morning, Thanks Jane and Ana Lark. I'll be doing a workshop with third through seventh graders in the morning also. I'm not sure what to expect. Even the smallest town I've ever lived in had thousands and thousands more in residence. Based on the conversation I had with Ana, the head librarian, I'm saying that the modis operandi is open arms! Not a lot of rules. Flexibility about everything. Salad bar provided with the poetry reading. Graciousness. I like it! Less anxiety, more pleasure. Today I learned that someone who runs a factory that makes yarn LOVES poetry, and she wants to know if I'd be interested in having another book-signing at her factory. What opportunity for doing that is there in Chicagoland! And having it be arranged pnly days before my arrival.
Stay tuned. To be continued . . . I'll let you know about Myrtle, what she has to confide to this city-folk.
Sunday I took a friend to the ER, and in her room, they had a print of a lilac bush, with the quote, "Wherever there is a human being, there is an opportunity for kindness." It's attributed to Lucius Annaeus Seneca who lived 5 AD to 65 BC. Evidently there was a need for kindness then also.
I thought that the ER room was apropos for this saying, as generally, one does receive much kindness in this often harried but caring setting. It's hard to ignore any acts of kindness that come our way in our current tumultuous state--so often like we are being bombarded with hate-driven rhetoric.
The need for kindness was driven home even more so when I had windows installed yesterday, and I sat in my office all day listening to a man berating the younger "helper" he was working with. I don't know how long they have been working together--maybe not long--but if the younger man was in training, then as a long-time teacher and as a human being, I was appalled with the strategies the "teacher" of the pair employed. Though it was clear that the older man knew the dangers of installing windows on the second floor of a building, the NOs that got shouted, the "You have to pay attention," the "What are you doing?," the "What did I tell you?," and the stinging dart of "Are you a moron?" certainly were devoid of ANY kindness whatsoever. I never witnessed the young man do anything but try to understand or please. On my worst day of teaching, I would not have spoken to a student in that way. I was so surprised that the young man did not WALK or TALK BACK. I felt later that I should have found a way to say something to both men. Surely there was another way to show concern and teach, to communicate instructions and warnings that did not rely on ridicule. Personally, I was very undone by the barrage of vitriol that went on all day long!
I can't help but think about the children being detained, separated from their parents--being held in cages. An abomination. No matter whose rulebook we use. Kindness may seem like a "weak" word to combat hate, but it may be the strongest impetus, the best tool or weapon we've got.
I went looking for a poem this morning.
I simply share this with you.
BY YUSEF KOMUNYAKAA
For Carol Rigolot
When deeds splay before us
precious as gold & unused chances
stripped from the whine-bone,
we know the moment kindheartedness
walks in. Each praise be
echoes us back as the years uncount
themselves, eating salt. Though blood
first shaped us on the climbing wheel,
the human mind lit by the savanna’s
ice star & thistle rose,
your knowing gaze enters a room
& opens the day,
saying we were made for fun.
Even the bedazzled brute knows
when sunlight falls through leaves
across honed knives on the table.
If we can see it push shadows
aside, growing closer, are we less
broken? A barometer, temperature
gauge, a ruler in minus fractions
& pedigrees, a thingmajig,
a probe with an all-seeing eye,
what do we need to measure
kindness, every unheld breath,
every unkind leapyear?
Sometimes a sober voice is enough
to calm the waters & drive away
the false witnesses, saying, Look,
here are the broken treaties Beauty
brought to us earthbound sentinels.
Link to source and audio recording: www.poetryfoundation.org/poetrymagazine/poems/41786/kindness-56d22013a8d03
It's mid-May almost. I just snipped lily of the valley from the backyard. The fragrance is unmistakably sweet. Something I imagine smelling on a grandma with a hankie. Mother's Day is two more flips of the daily calendar. Many years I shared my birthday with a celebration of my mother for Mother's Day. I was happy to do that.
My mother has been gone from this earth for 12 years. She battled ovarian cancer which is never pretty. Cancer is rarely pretty. Some people beat it. I wish we heard more of that. It seems lately too many people I know are in the throes of it. It taxes the most resilient patient and caregivers.
I remember clearly the first visit my mom and dad and I made to the oncologist who seemed almost flippant. Like this as an everyday thing that he had under control. He did not welcome questions. My mother was rarely demanding, but after a time, she decided to look for another doctor. The second oncologist was very business-like despite my mother's efforts to soften his "style." Six months before she died, we, my father, mother, and I, visited that second cancer doctor who told my mother that there might be one more drug she could try that would give her like 30% chance of living six more months. My mother was done. She wasn't giving up. By this point, it was about quality of life. She'd had numerous allergic reactions, nearly died from chemo drugs, had been through three different rounds plus bouts of radiation, made it 23 months past the first round instead of the 24 months we were hoping for because statistics said she'd live longer if she could make it 24 months--some kind of magic number or guesstimate. She almost NEVER complained. By the time she decided no more chemo, she was four and a half years in. The moment that she told the doctor that she was not going to try this last ditch chemo, he was DONE. That was it. It didn't seem to matter that she was in pain, that we had questions. It felt so heartless. Surely there has to be a happy medium between over-confident and cold. I remember so much about those years, the doctor visits, the good times, and there were many, in between the tough ones. But there was always, always a nearly crippling sense of loss before THE loss that I could not shake.
I recall one day my mother was not her usual inquisitive self on the phone. Later I learned that she had stopped in the middle of the living room near a chair and sobbed in my father's arms. It would have shaken me to the core to see that. I think I'd seem my mother cry three times--at her father's funeral, when her arm got caught somehow in a window, and when my brother left tar in his pants and they went in the dryer. She sat for hours in front of the dryer scraping tar off the drum.
I know people, mostly women, who had mothers who criticized their appearance, who failed to mother them in the most incomprehensible ways, mothers who died young, mothers who were absent physically and emotionally. When I hear their stories, I know I was lucky.
Even now though I struggle for words to say how much she meant to me. She was not perfect, though I often thought she was. Darn near it often seemed. She had an unquenchable curiosity about life and an invincible spirit. She infected and affected people she met with her kindness and positive disposition.
I'll let this poem speak for her absence.
The Cake Knife
scorched in one spot
in my mother’s
cabinets and dark spaces
in the silver chest
my father said
and I use the knife
he hands me
to cut my favorite cake
the one she always made
that does not
taste the same
--first published in YourDailyPoem.com yourdailypoem.com/listpoem.jsp?poem_id=2231
A recent version (2018) below made with one grandmother's square cake pan and my other grandmother's depression glass plate.
I guess it's a question that gets asked often. Why does poetry have such a bad rap?
Earlier this week a salesman came to my house to give me an estimate for replacement windows. I already knew I was ordering, so basically he was chitchatting while writing up the order on his iPad. I learned in course of the conversation that he likes to read. A lot. He likes to read historical fiction, though he didn't quite have a name for it. I mentioned that a woman in my book group likes to read only fiction that she can learn something from--historical fiction would also be her pick. On his way out, we were were still talking about this and that, and he saw my new book in the front hall. He said, "Did you write that?" I said, "Yes, it's poetry." His response, "Oh." I chuckled a a bit about that. The "oh" and the voice- dropping disappointment. He was apologetic, but it was a reminder of poetry's "bad rap."
This week I worked with an eighth-grade student who had to pull together a poetry project. He had to write four original poems, mostly from a formula. Two he chose to write were called "I Feel" poems, one of which began "I feel blessed / and cared for." Much much abstraction. Then he had to copy four poems from books--not write about why he chose them or respond to them or "talk" about them. He had to "design" a "fru-fru" cover (because of course, fru- fru goes with poetry) which consisted of a clipart couch and the title "Poetry on the Couch" derived from the only poem with a spark of creativity, one that we worked on together. That poem personified his living room couch. He was all smiles when he finished that poem. "That was fun." I hope that is what he remembers about poetry. The teacher gave back his project during class the next day; she had read through it while students were taking standardized testing, and she said that she'd love to give it an "A" if he would only take the time to go over the handwritten poems he had chosen in INK instead of pencil. I know my eyebrows raised to the low ceiling in the dining room.
And then I told him just a little bit about the project I did in eighth grade. How I remembered it still. That project was at the other end of the spectrum in terms of requirements and difficulty. I've kept it for over half a century, partly because I'm sure I must have had a meltdown putting it all together.
The project included pages of notes I took during class, definitions of poetic terms including "sentiment" and "caesura," quizzes on poems discussed in class, and an analysis of every poem we discussed in class--at least ten, including "Exposure" by Wilford Owen, Poe's "Ulalume" and "Annabelle Lee," De La Mare's "The Listerner," "Trees" by Joyce Kilmer, and poems by Thomas Hood, Wordsworth, and Frost. Because I tend toward the over-achiever, I included short bios on each poet and "wow"-ed the teacher. Bonus 15 points!
I don't recall it, but I must have chosen William Henry Davies to read in-depth. The last section had to include an explication of ten of the poet's poems. The teacher wrote: Poems could be explicated a little more exactly. Oops! The packet was 56 typewriter-typed pages with handwritten notes throughout.
I'm guessing that some students left Mr. Rochelle's English class thinking and expressing much the same sentiment as the window replacement salesman. I'm not sure why I hung onto the project for so long, the pages now fragile and withered. It was a lot of work, and undoubtedly a bowl of tears, but so was the Civil War project we had to do that included copying down every battle and an outline of all the details about each battle. Nowhere does that exist in my current "saved" files or boxes.
I query myself: What made poetry memorable? I know at that time I had never given even fifteen seconds of consideration to becoming a poet, much less a published one.
What made poetry stick? The teacher. Maybe. The sheer amassing of material? Maybe. The cover that I thought was so clever but my teacher did not "get"? Possibly. I'm sure there was a convergence of many factors that led me down the poetry highway so many years later. Maybe for me it ends up being about "learning something" too, and not so differently from the lovers of historical fiction.
Last Sunday I had a book launch for my latest book, Tapping Roots. A non-poet friend of the hostess approached me to buy a book after the reading. She told me she cried during the reading of at least a couple of the poems. She was extremely complimentary, and she was so surprised at how many ways she connected to the poems themselves. Of course, I was pleased. One specific comment she made was that the poem about my father as he remembered his father forcing him to prove himself a man was told with such "small real estate." I remember my struggles with this poem to do just that--to avoid overtelling, overwriting.
Poetry's magic for me IS in the "real estate." How words mean, how they are structured, how the "property" is painted, how I learn from the process of putting words together and from reading how others do the same. And how that "real estate" is received, how it lives on. I'm not sure I'll make any big inroads in poetry's sour reputation, but . . .
The manning-up poem--
My Father Remembers His Father
Dad is the foreman, supervising work
on the hospital. Before that, Rust Plumbing.
And before that, the mines, black dust living
in the creases in his hands, his eyelids caked,
his lips cussing blackness.
You never did a hard day’s work in your life,
he says when one-by-one my brothers
and I find work in factories or offices.
His handtools idle in the garage--
we are never allowed to touch.
He hounds us--
Nothing but a bunch of sissies.
I am the sissy who delivers papers,
the one who rolls the clay to smooth
the tennis courts behind the high school
so I can hit a couple balls, the one who works
in the pants factory after high school
making sure the line workers have the zippers
and buttons they needed. I am the sissy
who turns over all his weekly pay ‘til I get out.
Behind our house is a grape arbor.
Out back near the alley, a chicken coop.
We raise our own chickens,
make wine from grapes we pick
and crush. More work for us boys.
I am the oldest. Once my father
must have thought that I needed to prove
my manhood. Go out back, he orders.
Catch a chicken. Cut off the head.
Catching isn’t that hard.
I carry it to the stump scarred
with the blade of the axe.
Thump. Thump. My father’s footsteps
on the bricked walk from the house.
I know I need one clean cut.
One swing clear through.
Swing and miss.
For those of you who are unfamiliar, RHINO is an international journal that publishes poetry and flash fiction including translations. We have a long history that stretches more than forty years. We call "home" Chicago, but recently we have a small contingent in the West near LA.
And it's no secret that the way RHINO editors work is a bit unique.
We actually meet eye-to eye! Not just three or four of us, but a whole crash of us. After doing a bit of research, I understand there's another (little-known) name for a congregation of rhinos--a stubbornness. (Check out this list of animal group names by clicking here.) That seems a bit odd, a stubbornness of rhinos, or RHINOs, but maybe it's a fit.
In the two weeks before each meeting, and every day really, editors are reading submissions on the online submission manager. Once a poem (or a group of poems) has had four readers or more and at least ONE of those editors gives the poem a ONE using a three-point ranking system, it is sent to the table for discussion. Any and every poem given a "1" by even one editor gets discussed. That's pretty amazing considering we receive thousands of submissions a year from April to October. Click here to learn more about submissions. And check out our new website while you're there.
Between 10-15 editors on any given week gather around a big table in someone's home. We open our laptops and fire up the iPads to call up the submissions that will be discussed. The poem is read aloud at least once, and then discussion ensues! We try to be somewhat efficient given the volume, but often the six or seven minute timer goes off and the discussion about how well the poem works, how it impacts us as readers, how it fits with what we've published, and what we'd like to publish continues.
Believe it or not, there's not much arguing. We try to keep things friendly. We have editors among us working as teachers, the self-employed, employed in a library, or working out there in the world somewhere, and the retired from a variety of careers. Many of us have MFA's but not all. Most of us write and publish poetry. Quite honestly, we celebrate the differences among us. We need those differences. Some of us lean to the lyrical, some the experimental, and others might be fans of a good narrative. We're always paying attention to language. That's hard to ignore! And craft! I'd have to say that when one reads as many poems in a year as we do, a poem really needs to stand out to make it to the table. Maybe the language just sings. Or there is an adept handling of a topic that outshines many others, for instance, love poems or poems of relationship or family strife--types of poems we see often. Taste naturally also comes into play. And we all want something that moves us!
One of my favorite parts about the discussion is that on first blush one might not be interested in a poem at all. After a convincing argument is made, one can become a convert!
We vote by simple majority. If there are ten of us at the table, it takes six votes for the poem to be accepted.
We're not just one editor making decisions, or even two or three. We're a CRASH of rhinos. Most of us have a "job" we do to make RHINO work in addition to reading--database, website guru, book-shipper, event managers, business manager, publicists, FORUM hosts and RHINO Reads moderators--plus the people who get that publication to the printer every year! We're not always well-oiled. But our intent is there. And the only way this works as Ralph Hamilton, editor-in-chief, will tell you is through mutual respect and concerted acts of kindness in an effort to celebrate a bit of the poetry that comes our way.
In the end, we stubbornly and with deliberation publish poetry, yes. But I've met a lot of wonderful people through my Rhino connection. Publish, poetry, and people. The perfect trifecta.
One of the writing strategies I like to use almost every time I begin a draft is to generate a list of words from another source, from a book of poetry or fiction or from almost anything written that's lying about. Sometimes there's some intentionality and sometimes not. I look for words that aren't in my personal lexicon--not that I don't know them, but I may not think to use them. Then I prop up that list of words in front of me at the computer or on my lap. SOMETIMES a word on that list will generate an entire poem.
I'm always looking for a way in--and about 80% of the time I'd say, my poems spring from a list. There's nothing proprietary about a list of words from another source, but I love how the list pushes me in a new direction or actually becomes the prompt or allows me to use much fresher language than I might otherwise. It eliminates hum-drum, I hope.
I've divined words from poetry books like Break the Habit by Tara Betts and Maggie Smith's Good Bones, and Pattiann Roger's book, Holy Heathen Rhapsody. and even a fiction book, Bradbury's Fahrenheit 451. I still marvel at what gets spit out on the page. I've read through entire books circling words as I read or just found and used a single longer poem. Rarely am I looking for a specific type of word for a specific subject. Rather, the goal is to gather words that do not seem to fit together or the subject, if there is one. The list IS my entry to the draft whether I'm writing about Frida Kahlo, the hospice caregiver bathing my mother, or my brother's childhood clubhouse.
This past week I wrote a draft of a poem currently titled either "Un-dream" or "Upfront." I had been reading through poems in the anthology section of Amorak Huey and Todd Kaneko's new book, Poetry: A Writers' Guide and Anthology.
My list for the poem I was working on this week--"Un-dreaming/Upfront"--was periphery, feistiness, sachet, lustrous, and quaint. Usually, the list is much longer, but the word "sachet" leaped at me, and I needed a poem draft that day to take to my writing critique group. As it turns out, I only used one word from my list, but more often I mayuse six or seven or more of the words from a list of twenty, for example.
Here's an excerpt from the poem which ended up being about a dream and The French Lieutenant's Woman and Diego Rivera and . . .
"all while I pretend to be more the me of me,
daffodils and bunny-shaped sugar cookies with red hots for eyes,
until I remember tucking sachet in with the thigh-high
black stockings and the pink garter belt
so they’ll smell of lavender
next time I tug them out, who knows when,"
Part of me can't imagine not writing this way. I've been doing it so long. One of my mentors, Alice George, used to talk about a poem's "front porch" as the beginning of a poem that got you to where the heat of the poem was, got you to the real poem you wanted to write. You built this elaborate porch but you didn't need it. I think of my strategy, my list, as "the purple door." The entrance. My entrée.
Recently I had a conversation with a non-poet friend who asked me why I write poetry or even read poetry. He had read some of my recent book, Tapping Roots, which was actually the first group of poems I ever pulled together. (I had already prompted him that I appreciated feedback.) This book is about growing up Midwesterner, and in particular, Southern Illinois., about people who have influenced my childhood and adult pilgrimage. If you don't count college, I've lived in thirteen "homes," but the place I still think of as "home" is the town where I was born, Belleville, Illinois--even though I only lived there for the first FIVE years of my life. I've been in the Chicago area for two-thirds of it. If people ask where I'm from, I say "Chicago," because of course in a way that's true. The majority of my adulthood was spent in one suburb or another. There's a certain odd pride in being "from" Chicago, but my heart, corny as that sounds, still belongs to the south of me.
I digress. My friend said he could really identify with so much in my book as he had similar experiences growing up (same generation and similar economic status in the early years), so he could see why this poetry at least affected people. On the other hand, he likes to read fiction that has nothing to do with his life--mysteries with involved plots--far from his daily life and work. The implication was that his choice of fiction did not "work" the same way as my poetry seemed to do. I walked away from this conversation having multiple conversations of my own in my head. The simplest answer to his question is that I write, and particularly poetry, to CONNECT. It seems like such a transparent yet "rings-true" answer. (Yes, I know that there are poets who say they don't care if someone likes what they write.)
At a high school lit fest workshop I led last week, a student asked why I write poetry. I'm pretty sure that telling eighty high schoolers that when I write, I feel a HIGH was not the wisest idea--but I blurted it out without apology. Of course, my response elicited a few giggles and snickers, but I also saw some head-nods. Is it the passion that comes first or the high? Is it the sense of connection when a few others read and like what I write, what any of us write, that propels? Doesn't the author of those mystery novels also connect with his reader, at least with the reader's need to escape or have a vicarious experience?
I guess there are really two acts--the creative one and the connective one. It makes me think about which act drives my writing, any writing--the act of creation or the desire to connect.
Steve Jobs has said, "Creativity is just connecting things. When you ask creative people how they did something, they feel a little guilty because they didn't really do it, they just saw something. It seemed obvious to them after a while. That's because they were able to connect experiences they've had and synthesize new things." I'm pretty sure he didn't write poetry, but his acts of invention were similarly wrapped in a need to connect, conscious or otherwise, and the outcome of his "work" and his "passion" was connection.
I started mulling over other facets of my intentional life. Friendships, teaching, photography, family, emails, FB, blogging, even doctoring or walking, all things I do with more or less relish. In every single instance, connection is the key. I choose passion and connection over isolation and loneliness, and I appreciate that sometimes that happens in the presence of other humans and sometimes in the process of the solitude of writing.
Yesterday I felt like I was part of a BIG DEAL. I participated as a judge for a LitFest held at a far west suburban high school. Evidently, it's been a "thing" for a couple decades. Students from thirteen schools participated. Leading up to this event, I read and commented on 235 poems and then yesterday led two poetry workshops.
At the Fest, students heard the keynote, Simone Elkeles, best-selling author of teen romance novels, speak about writing, her process, writing as career, the general lack of glamour, the need for revision. She had the students with her all the way. After, students had an opportunity to attend two of six workshops in diverse genres--slam poetry, personal essay, descriptive sketch, dramatic scripts, and poetry.
My workshop centered on Found Poetry--centos, cut-ups or remixes, and erasures. Each of the 120 or so students who attended the poetry workshop had a chance to write a cento and an erasure poem. There was little hesitation on their parts to write or share--a marvel in itself to me after so many years in the classroom prodding reluctant learners. I provided a list of lines for composing short centos. And three passages for erasure poem experimentation--a section from Bradbury's Fahrenheit 451, a poem that appeared on Rattle after the death of Stephen Hawking, and a letter from Nelson Mandela to his daughters. My hope was that students would see ways to FRESHEN their writing. I was certainly impressed! How wonderful to have students around me who WANTED to take the risk.
It might seem odd, but the most impressive part of the day was the award ceremony. You might think boring, long, drawn out, but more than 300 students gathered in the auditorium to celebrate each other and WRITING awards. Students CHOSE to attend this LitFest. chose to submit pieces of writing beforehand. Judges read and assigned awards for Honorable Mention, Third, Second, and First Place, and then lastly, the Critic's Choice award. I actually felt quite emotional thinking about the efforts behind this annual event that has taken place for a couple decades, the people who made it happen, and the excitement of individual students when names were announced and celebrated by classmates who cheered them on. My mind spun to sporting events where the cheering can be deafening. How often do we get to see this type of jubilation over WRITING. It's so often such a solitary endeavor, and often unrecognized. While judges read the top winning pieces, there was no audience chatter, no cell phone distraction, and no one exited. The audience was diverse, but the response was uniform--respectful! It seemed like a BIG DEAL!
My favorite conversation of the day was with a young woman, a senior named Mary, who had been to the LitFest four years in a row. She approached me during writing time to ask my opinion about short poems. She was articulate and earnest. She told me that this year she had submitted a shorter poem uncharacteristically, and that she was beginning to think that there was some merit to "less is more." She said at times it was hard to give up passages that just weren't working, hard to let them go--the idea often attributed to Faulkner--“In writing, you must kill all your darlings” and more recently to Stephen King, who evidently wrote, “kill your darlings, kill your darlings, even when it breaks your egocentric little scribbler’s heart, kill your darlings.” I found myself so moved by her insight (something I'm only now acquired as a more "seasoned" writer, her spirited eyes, and her ease in conversing about something that was clearly a passion. It was not so much that she was asking about "short poems" in the end, but about a writer's ability to discern what's working. I think her analysis of the merit and challenge of drafting and revision required no response from me--I simply nodded vigorously.
As an aside, another young woman, maybe a freshman, approached me and asked what do you do about those lines you've written in a story or a poem that you LOVE, but when you give the manuscript to someone else to read, they don't "get" that one line you think is pivotal. My response was that maybe it's her obligation to look back at it and without overexplaining it, see if she can figure out how to help the reader get there. Such thoughtful people.
As a teacher, it was good to be back in a school which feels like home to me. At the awards ceremony I was pleased to see that in the process of blind judging, I had chosen Mary's poem for third place-----a "short" poem titled "Home."
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By far this erasure below by Austin Kleon received the best response from the high school crowd!
Find Austin here: austinkleon.com/newspaperblackout/
Want to tackle a cento--the uniting of lines from other poets’ writing to form a collaged poem. Here's a list to help you begin.
a dead raccoon (Lauren Gordon)
all its salty tears (Shannan Ballam)
And whatnot (Esther Lee)
check (Sean Howard)
disappear without a trace (Ada Limon)
emptying its anger (Kyle McCord)
honey from my lips (Jeff Whitney)
I am not light. I do not gallop. I'm ash (Donna Vorreyer)
I cut my hair. (Anna Meister)
I mistranslate myself. (Kelly Corinda)
in the morning world (Robin Chapman)
indelible tattoos (Terrance Hayes)
into the river a stone's throw (Lisa Fishman)
it is easy to imagine (Gordon Buchan)
It no longer opens (Katherine Hollander)
it's totally over (Kay Ryan)
of air. (B Soloy)
standing (Ross Gay)
Talk to me. (Christine Swanberg)
the blood on the moon drips (Micah Bateman)
the drowning clutch anything (Emily J. Cousins)
The heart is a cloak (Ralph Hamilton)
the trees (Andrew Haley)
this hole in me (Larry Janowski)
thunder punctuates (Steven Stamatis)
time felt like a kitten (Bill Yarrow)
to panic at any time (Anne Shaw)
to spit or to spirit away its pain (Galway Kinnell)
to the eyes (Angie Macri)
we read the article with a little shake of shock (Matt Mason)
What is missing (Tim Green)
Where the fire enters (Roger Reeves)
wings. They buzz (Thom Caraway)
write like you mean it (David Ulin)
You found me with my head bowed. (Matt Mauch)
Want to try an erasure poem. Here are a couple texts for experimentation!
The Revival Tour
Poet Bloggers 2018
Kelli Russell Agodon-
Donna Vorreyer – https://djvorreyer.wordpress.com
Beth Adams – http://www.cassandrapages.com
Sandra Beasley – http://sbeasley.blogspot.com
Carolee Bennett – https://gooduniversenextdoor.com/
Mary Biddinger – wordcage.blogspot.com/
Andrea Blythe – http://www.andreablythe.com
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Kevin Connor – https://ordinaryaveragethoughts.wordpress.com/
Jared Conti – http://www.theoracularbeard.com
Jenelle D’Alessandro – http://www.borderandgreetme.com
Laura E. Davis – http://www.dearouterspace.com/
Kate Debolt – http://www.katedebolt.net/blog/
Heather Derr-Smith – ferhext.com/
Risa Denenberg – https://risadenenberg.weebly.com/blog
Cynthia Schwartzberg Edlow http://cschwartzbergedlow.blogspot.com
Lou Faber – https://anoldwriter.com
Jeannine Hall Gailey – webbish6.com
Gail Goepfert –In the Mix gailgoepfert..com/blog
Sarah Kain Gutowski – mimsyandoutgrabe.blogspot.com
Erin Hollowell – http://www.beingpoetry.net . T
Crystal Ignatowski – http://somehiatus.tumblr.com/
Charles Jensen – https://charles-jensen.com/kinemapoetics-blog/
Jill McCabe Johnson http://jillmccabejohnson.com/blog-chanson-daventure.html
Collin Kelley http://www.collinkelley.blogspot.com
Anita Olivia Koester https://www.forkandpage.com/
Lakshmi – thiswinterheart.tumblr.com
Courtney LeBlanc – wordperv.com
Lorena P Matejowsky https://nothingbutblueskies.wordpress.com/
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Ann Michael – www.annemichael.wordpress.com
Amy Miller – http://writers-island.blogspot.com/
James Moore – jameswmoore.wordpress.com
LouAnn Sheperd Muhm – https://louannmuhm.com/
Gill O’Neill – http://poetmom.blogspot.com
Shawnte Orion http://batteredhive.blogspot.com/
Susan Rich – http://thealchemistskitchen.blogspot.com .
Lee Ann Roripaugh https://runningbrush.wordpress.com/
Sarah Russell – https://sarahrussellpoetry.net
Kim Bailey Spradlin – www.kimbaileydeal.net
Bonnie Staiger –https://bonniestaiger.com/
Rosemary Starace https://thresholdview.wordpress.com/
Hannah Stephenson – http://thestorialist.com
Stephanie Lane Sutton
Christine Swint – https://balancedonedge.blog/
Dylan Tweney – http://dylan20.tumblr.com/
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Allyson Whipple http://allysonmwhipple.com